Today is a pretty lousy day. I feel so overwhelmed and exhausted but its kept so well hidden behind 150mg of “happiness” in a pill. Somedays i feel like throwing them down the drain, and never swallowing a single one again. Just so i can physically feel again. Cry again. Break free of living like a zombie, devoid of actually showing human emotion.

Its so intensely frustrating to be filled with raging despair yet have very little capability of venting it.